我为什么要觉得可怜，这就是我的生活。我甚至要感谢它，它让我在任何情况下都必须往前走。我没有退路，我只能不停地努力向前走。Did you ever feel sorry for yourself?--That had always been my life and I really```I feel that I got lucky, because any sensive security was pulled out so I was forced to look forward. I had to... there was no going back and I reached a point where I just thought, "oh I'm gonna work as hard as I possibly can and see what happens" and now I'm going to college. and the NYT is going to pay.